"The truth is I've never fooled anyone. I've let people fool themselves. They didn't bother
to find out who and what I was. Instead they would invent a character for me. I wouldn't argue with them. They were obviously loving somebody I wasn't. When they found this out, they would blame me for disillusioning them and fooling them."
-Marilyn Monroe

i hate...

not being able to sleep at night . . . .

too many thoughts run through me head.

if i could....

i'd change alot of things.

without trust,
no relationship will EVER work.
i promise you that.

Action expresses priorities.

"Don't tell me where your priorities are. Show me where you spend your money and I'll tell you what they are" Real talk, success is another form of failure IF WE FORGET what our priorities SHOULD BE.

i really do got my priorities set on school, i had this whole summer to think about where i wanna be. & money is not something i want to waste again. sept 23 is when cal state east bay starts, so baby here i go, gottta prove not only to my parents but to myself that i can be successful when you really put your mind into it. mmm =)

he got my mind,body&soul

& i never been so sure about anyone before.

summer reign was crackin.

BEHBEH REUNION THO!

i need a getaway.

Take me there & lets never leave.

fuck bitches GET MONEY

I juss remembered why i dont have that many girlfriends, they all talk to much shit for no reason. haha im glaad i chose & select the ones i wanna keep & wanna X out. I got the best of the best. nuff said! FUCK THE REST

but im HELLA sad i only took 2 pix at NV. the lines were too damn long for taking pix. but yeah that night was craccckin. hella people. after the clubb we went to chill at brahyans. he shulda juss went to nv instead of abyss. lol was there till 6 o clockk in the mufuckin mornin! me lex and bryan wass hella upp doin random ass shit. crazy. from hittin curbs, to almost crashin, gettin hella stoges, drivin around hella slappin, slurppees from 7/11 to swingin at the park then back to the house sittin down, talkin, then finally had to end the nigghtt cuz i hadda be home! haha but i love them! my two favorite people in the world. alex yambao & bryan lim. my boyfriend & my breastfriend.

truth be told..

“since we all came from a women, got our name from a women, and our game from a women. I wonder why we take from women, why we rape our women, do we hate our women? I think its time we killed for our women, be real to our women, try to heal our women, cus if we dont we'll have a race of babies that will hate the ladies, who make the babies. And since a man can't make one he has no right to tell a women when and where to create one” -2pac

& im lucky to have him in my lifee

before him, anyone and everyone new what kinds of niggas would come into my life. I used to be that girl who never gave that chance. Stuntin by herself. Always did her thangg. I had my good share of stupid assholes. Left before was left & then was in holes that were so hard to get out of. I was more of the "fuck love" type bisnass because the love that was given before wasnt real. niggas can say & do the nicest things and not mean it. but i know the difference now. i know all the games that was played because i too played that game back. & this time its foreal no games at all. I never been caught up in my emotions & understand it like this. I never was soo down for a nigga until he made me see what i really need in my life. I never been soo satisfied. if you knew me before, there was ALWAYS something wrong with a dude, and when i say always, i mean ALWAYS, dont wanna embarass or point shit out but trust, ppl frum my past was NOT THE BISNASS. lol all the pain that was held inside me before has began to fade away because he made things better to make me forget about my past. makes sense? iono i cant explain...no one can ever do the things he do. he's really one in a million. neva woulda thought we'd end up together. its funny how we met lol ask me the story. its been 1 year 7.28.08 and im blessed that we are still together & hella solid. i know we have our arguments & stupid fights because of my stubborn ass but he still puts up with me and i put up with him because honestly i do need him. i mean regardless all the things thass been said and dun, he's always there for me. not only as a boyfriend but as a friend. i can tell him things when im in all kinds of moods & not scared to tell him anything. I've always wanted something like this & now i have it, i dont ever want to let this go. there aint nothing better out there for me. this is the best i've ever had & ever will have so ladies & fellas, let it be known that alex&jemilah aint letting nuttin come between us.

Promise ring. who does that ne more? ha who cares, my baby brought it back. plumeria hawaiian ring from na hoku jewelry. the 5 petals symbolizes: sincerity, faith, devotion aspiration and surrender. mMmph shinnin on u fake flower bitches. =p he's hella sweet. i know you jelly.

things will never change..

i juss wished me & my mom can have a better relationship. but its hard to change when someone else wont either... its always the same thing over & over again. luckily my dad is there. At least he tries to understand where im coming from. i just dont know what to do. i guess in her eyes im something different. but im telling you right now, there are people out there who is hella more worse than me. real talk.

Adios is hella deadly..

send love & pray for my tita tess.

please pray for my family to have the strength to deal with this situation in a healthy manner. This is a scary feeling but as long as we stick together and be there not only for each other but remind each other that we do need to be together no matter where we are, then everything will turn out better in the long run. All i need. *family

GLASKAT IS ALWAYS ELBOW 2 ELBOW

they were suppose to be at glaskat with me =\
only bc dj lexo is trynna be up in the mix tho =) HELLA MATCHING THO

killing me softly...

werds spoken.

i want to be the reason you strive the inspiration to your art & lyrics to your soul a p h y s i c a l m e l o d y a p a l p a b l e h a r m o n y despite rhyme or reason shall we create rhythm so perfect in every essence of design.

Clubbin days are over till summer reign

photos frum clubbin since november i think. i rarely take pix but here are sum to be posted. i really need a camera of my own. imma copp one tho sooon cuz i needa start havin sum prooooof of memories. hahaha cuz my mind capacity has too much info that i hella can't rememberrr.. too many goodtimes. (HELLA OUTTA ORDER) im soo sadd i didnt take pix frum other clubbss thoo